That moment

I’ve gone through the most precious moment. It was when I began look at the large of the world and found many different things from previously. How so grateful I was for had been let to meet that moment. Because of that which have changed my self and my mind become more courageous to reveal what inside my heart and my mind are. Also always look at the things not from narrow side but larger for life better.

Step by step I understand How my self exactly is. I find a lot of strong motivation too. It is weird. But it definitely bring me for stronger and push my foots to be brave to take step. Although it’s only a dream that far away from reaching my hands, but I’m still happy. At least I have courage just for a dream that haven’t done before. I’m not afraid because I think it’s nothing wrong with those.

The moment that I found that moment, I remembered when decided to take a different way from what many people think about me is. And I remembered it was fear. How did if I fail and fall? How I could overcome the situation in around? And it was true I failed. It was so painful and I tried to smile as though I enjoyed. That was a true situation happened. Even that was a memory I want to forget forever.

After that I kept walk on my life because it was a way I’ve choosen. I didn’t know when it was begun but I’ve found the bright glow. I was like was reborn and I very enjoyed. But I had a question again. Have I choosen the right way? I’ve found my self and my power. But in other side I’ve also found my enemy and my weakness. When hope and courage get stronger just like that with fear. This is a new problem that I must face to.

Now I can look for and figure the indeterminancy out. Even also can formulate in a question sentence. I write at the white paper with the blank ink very clear and for the answer too. This is more horrible. I can make everything very clear. The good and the bad. I begin write down the things in the future carefully by look at the fact. It make me shocked. Because the result never find the ending. The fact is far from the formula that I’ve made. Then how I can take care of my self? The most horrible is because everything is looked very clear and I know it will be tears.

In spite of this, I’m happy and will be so grateful even if I have to weep. I can understand how my self is although not always can take care of. This is so precious. Now I can say very clear that I’ve choosen the right way. I will enjoy it. Thanks to you who’ve accompanied me all this time and also to you who’ve made me cry and fall.